Singletons.life

This is my first post for about 6 months. Ohhhhhhh boy has this changed completely!!! went from talking about my journey to building a 3d printing business to opening up a board game cafe to bailing out all plans, selling my things to donating it all, bags are packed, get me out of here. Like I’m a celebrity get me out of here, I’m a Brit, get me out of here!!!

It’s mad how Costa has made me lose myself a bit. Because I was able to get coffee on the cheap, I forgot about the fun of coffee in general. I managed to grind some coffee beans up and make a coffee out of my Moka pot, and that soon gave me that spark of why I worked at Costa and why I enjoy coffee.

What have I learnt in the last 6 months? My body cannot cope with 100% clean. When I say clean, I mean, carnivour and no smoking. either I can quit carbs and smoke or quit smoking and eat carbs. Split the decision here! Either I feel bloated, put on weight, inflammation galore, or put up with the shit smelling clothes and smells of smoke in general. I can’t stand the smell! I crept to 3 fags a day. I have been suffering from an absolute burnout. I’ve been worked to the ground. I’ve handed my notice to my landlord to pursue a journey to either work for a friend out in Auz, or try out for the FIFO. Made myself jobless and homeless in a day. I tried selling my stuff, 3d printers, pc, a car, and a beloved mountain bike. altogether, if I was able to sell these. I could well be there right now. instead, making myself homeless and jobless in one day, donating all my stuff, hoping I could find a hostel and transfer to a Costa nearby. This will allow me to have free accommodation and food, along with building funds up for aus. I’ve chosen the smoking option as the focus and energy I gain, is more powerful than not smoking.

I feel I have started recovering from the burnout, which is great! because I have a lot to do before 6th Jan. It Felt like a lifetime this burnout has lasted. noticed that because I started eating carbs I am getting this burn out. It’s not ideal, it’s not what I need. Labour came into power and decided to bump all their taxes RIGHT back up!!! It is no longer feasible to start up my own business with all my ideas. I could go for the safety net and work hard doing all them hours again, with the old company I used to work for, life is not a treadmill!!! I am going to fall back into place and work all hours and gain no life. work-life balance the world sees, the world I go!!! yes, I mentioned FIFO. Realistically, I see that as a good step in stone to build myself a foundation. Do 2 years of that, see where life leads me from there. Cant exactly plan for things like this, you can look at your options and see where it leads you.

I have also tried finding funds for this aus trip. That’s not been that easy. Even asked others to borrow £2500 to then put it back in their account after I’ve taken a statement proof of it being in my account. Either the trust these days has gone or generally, there is no money to share around. Life has never been easy or to pursue, you can never give up!!!!